Sunday, November 10, 2013
Tuesday, October 15, 2013
It's been a preeeettyyyy long while since I last blogged
so I decided to blog on something more "significant" today.
But before that,
Selamat Hari Raya Haji to my fellow Muslim friends!
WARNING : CONTINUE READING AT YOUR OWN EXPENSE
So today, I will be blogging about Chinese curse words.
That's right, you read it right.
Chinese freaking curse words.
For those of you who have no idea what Chinese curse words are,
here's a link : http://www.youswear.com/index.asp?language=Chinese#.Uly6-lDI2So
I honestly think it is one of the most ridiculous curse words of all that I know;
not to say I'm fluent in THAT many languages but I know a handful.
It is simply nonsense to me because it all doesn't really make sense you know?
Let's pick up an example shall we?
(highlight to see above)
So that basically means "mother's vagina".
I don't know about you, but to me, how on earth is saying "mother's vagina" an insult?
First of all, whoever who uses that has a mother and they should be at least insulted using it in the first place.
And how does using "mother's vagina" to so called "scold" someone, make any sense?
You came from that freaking hole.
If there was no "mother's vagina" for you to come out from, you would have rotted in the uterus
or get tangled in the umbilical cord while your mother was in labour or something.
You'd be like,
"mom, yeah mom I'm ready to come out now. wait whut I'm stuck here? okeh."
Secondly, Chinese curse words annoy me cause they are sexist.
If there is any gender involved in any of them, the abundance of those words emphasis on female genitals and mothers or a combination of both.
It is insane.
Referring back to my first point, it already doesn't make any sense.
And now they choose a side to emphasis on for their not-making-any-sense-ness?
I am bewildered.
I don't judge.
I just personally don't think it's a smart (lol) insult.
Like if you take a step back and think, "what am I really saying here?", you'd get what I mean.
But if anything, all the curse words don't really make sense no?
It basically means sex.
So.. SEX YOU!
Posted by yennator at 12:00 PM
Wednesday, August 28, 2013
It's been about 2 months since I last updated my blog.
If there ARE actually people reading this, my deepest apologies.
I can't exactly say I've been caught up with things because well the fact is that I have been on sem break since like a month and 3 weeks ago.
And in that span of 7 weeks, I have ate and ate and ate and slept and slept and slept and exercised.
See the ratio of eat to sleep to exercise?
It is standing at a very pathetic 3:3:1.
At this rate, I'll turn into a fatty in no time.
I find holidays very weird.
Cause before the holidays, you have all these plans in your head and you're like,
"Yup during the holidays I'll be doing this and that and eating healthy and catching up on my sleep."
Well out of all those 'this and that'-s, I definitely slept a lot.
Like A LOT.
So much sleep I had, that now when I have anything less than 8 hours of snooze, I wake up really fatigue.
And I'll spend the whole day slugging around in the house.
Aside sleeping, I spent money during the holidays.
A LOT OF MONEY.
The context of a lot here for money is more than that of sleep.
I bought way too many things.
Which if I were to be broke (like now), I would be able to live without.
I keep in mind that as a future accountant, I will need to learn to be more thrifty.
Can you imagine, when my future boss asks me,
"Hey Yenlin, I want to buy this for the company bla bla bla."
"SURE! Get it! It's such a deal!"
I really need to learn to curb this shopaholic problem of mine.
Really is an understatement.
If my boyfriend were to be reading this post, he'd be nodding all the way and giving me the UH HUH look.
Well, the holidays is technically over.
It's just me, still in the holiday mood and not going for classes :x
On another note, can I just say that my timetable this semester is SHIT.
Well, not literally. But if it had to be another object other than a timetable, it'd be shit.
I have a class until 8 on Tuesdays, which is absolute NONSENSE.
WHY TAYLOR'S WHY.
I PAY MY FEES.
I DO WELL IN MY EXAMS.
Y U PUNISH ME
So yeah. Just done sorting out some new songs in my iTunes library.
And I feel achieved.
If you're in Malaysia, particularly in the PJ/KL region, you would know that the weather is SEX today.
I iz no kiddingz. The weather is just beautiful.
All I was missing today was a warm cup of lemon tea from Coffea Coffee.
With amazing music (Buble, Timberlake, the works ;3) and the weather,
I was having one of the best days of my holiday.
As I'm typing now, I am blessed with the beautiful orgasmic sweet sweet voice of Justin Timberlake doing his thing to my ears.
You would think his famous songs are good.
His underrated ones are equally as amazing.
I for one thing JT could do no harm recording more songs like the one above hehehe.
Well I guess this is as far as my pretty empty blog post goes.
Till then; xx.
Monday, July 8, 2013
This may be me speaking out of sadness and disappointment, but it is what I feel right now.
I, have never constantly felt this tired before in my whole entire life.
Not physically but emotionally.
I know I shouldn't be feeling this way this often.
And the fact that I am means something is wrong.
Maybe it's me, maybe it's not.
Hmm I think it's a bit of both.
Deep deep deep deep down, I honestly think I may not be suitable to be in a relationship.
It always never fails to make me feel crappy.
Maybe I'm destined to be alone for the rest of my life with tons of dogs running around in my house.
I don't know.
Though, it doesn't sound so bad.
Of being alone, with dogs.
At least they'll never do anything to make me feel this way.
Although, they'll probably make me tired, PHYSICALLY.
Ha ha ha ha ha.
I don't know.
I sometimes (like times like these), feel like I honestly deserve better.
Why am I putting myself through this right?
If I'm not happy I should just fucking leave.
And make myself happy again.
"What's the point of anything if you're not happy?"
Because I somehow think that no matter what I'll always end up forgiving,
and things will go back to normal.
But things have been fluctuating so much I'm beginning to think that this shouldn't be the way.
I see my wrongs, but I don't think he does.
Even if he does, he doesn't seem to be doing anything to make it right.
Or even if he is, it definitely doesn't feel like it on my part.
I look at all these people; some friends, some strangers, and I see them.
And they look so happy.
I can't help but wonder, do I feel that way too?
Tuesday, April 30, 2013
I'm blogging now cause I'm bored and I'm sitting here waiting doing nothing.
So, WHY NOT! hahaha
Life has been busy lately.
With uni and et cetra.
Well not so much uni, since I skip classes all the goddamn time .__.
Every weekend I tell myself, ok next week, I WILL attend a full week of lectures + tutorials.
Yeaaaahhhhhhh, that doesn't work out very well.
But honestly the only reason I feel shity about skipping classes is cause of my attendance record.
I don't think I would actually give the situation two fcks if my attendance didn't matter for me to take exams.
Sigh life is hard ~
Anyhoo! I kind of like uni life.
Miss my college friends, cause we were quite a tight knitted family.
But in uni it's like you're in different classes with different people.
AND FOR SOME REASON, all my class mates are from Foundation.
So they all know each other and are pretty close.
And that kinds of leaves me, alone.
That sadly makes me sounds so antisocial.
It's not that I don't want to make friends.
I just don't really see the point I guess?
Like I know these people are just going to be hi-bye friends (or at least most of them)
that I won't really be keeping in touch with once we're not in the same classes anymore.
So I hang out with Andrew and people from his year.
As always, me hanging out with people who are not directly related to me in a way.
And when they graduate a year earlier than me, I'll be all alone, AS ALWAYS.
I really need to start making friends, don't I?
till then, xx!
Posted by yennator at 10:50 AM
Saturday, April 13, 2013
Sunday, March 10, 2013
So here comes the explanation post for my crappy posts lately.
So I recently went through a break up.
I honestly have come to terms with it albeit the crazy tipsy/drunk post before this.
I'll admit, I was sad, hurt, in pain.
Every single word that could mean sad, that I was.
I mean come on, who wouldn't be sad after a break up?
Well there's the party that initiated it, but the others like me, would be rather down in the dumps.
Especially if you took the relationship seriously.
But what are you going to do?
What is the point of sitting there and sulking 24/7?
Would it make any difference?
Would it change things?
Would it change his mind?
Would it make you feel better?
I'm making a turn for the better now.
I realized that I don't need anyone who doesn't need me.
I don't need anyone who thinks I am a burden.
I don't need anyone who doesn't love me.
The yennator deserves better.
She deserves someone who would not give up on her.
Someone who would not walk out when things got hard.
And I know I'll find that someone in the future.
Of course it sucks.
Honestly, he passes my mind a thousand times a day.
I'm not even kidding.
We've done so much, that almost everything I do reminds me of him.
I miss the good times, I really do.
And I wished we had more and I expected us to have more.
But that's not going to happen.
So now when things remind me of him, I just say it out, and laugh to myself.
It was after all a good memory.
It's been slightly more than a week.
And I can honestly say I'm proud of myself, of my progress.
I couldn't have done this alone.
Friends are like the most essential thing about recovery.
I guess this is what people mean when they say "bros over hoes" and stuff like that.
(idk what's the girl version, chicks before dicks? LOL)
When you're in a shitty place like I was, you know who your true friends really are.
Cause they'd be the only one willing to get down and dirty to pull you up from the deep dark hole you're in.
I cannot express how much I appreciate everything every single one of them has done for me.
From those who just sent me a simple "cheer up" message to those who listened and got me back on track,
I LOVE EVERY SINGLE ONE OF YOU ALL!
Special shoutout to Kristie, Andrew, Manesh, Zak and Ivor.
These few here, have been amazing.
I cannot ask for more :)
Andrew, my amazing amazing LIKE CANNOT MORE AMAZING best friend/hubby.
He's a blessing.
Been through quite a lot of shit/adventures in the past 3 years.
Thanks so much love, 5 hearts for you!
This here is Manesh.
Big tall Indian boy.
A retard but one of the best :)
I sadly do not have any recent pictures with the rest of them.
But I still love you all nonetheless hehe!
You will start doubting everything.
Every moment you've been through.
Wondering if it was all a lie all along.
I'll be honest, I haven't figured that part out yet.
But I'll get there.
It really is.
And it's going to hurt like fuuuuckkkkk.
I know it hurt me.
To see how easy he's taking it.
But then I realized if he can do it, so can I.
If he can be happy without me, so can I.
So can you.
Like I've said already, if he's so sure he's happy without you, so be it.
You deserve to be happy too.
You deserve to let it go and move on.
Everything in this world happens for a reason.
Maybe it's happening so the next time, you will appreciate the moments more?
Or you will be more cautious?
Whatever it is, God doesn't throw things that you can't handle to you.
It's all a part of life.
Maybe God has a bigger plan in store for you than you had for yourself :)
For anyone of you who are actually going through this, here's a piece of advice.
IT WILL GET BETTER.
I know you probably feel like it won't.
And when all hope is gone, what do you hold onto?
You hold onto yourself, my dear.
You may not know this now, but you're stronger than this, you're better than this.
Hold your head up high and smile, cause the world is missing that beautiful smile of yours.
Why be sad over someone who has hurt you so much, who does NOT deserve a single tear of yours.
You WILL get over this and when you do, nothing will feel better,
than to look back for that one last time to see how much you've changed.
If so many other people can do this, so can you.
So never give up.
This dentist story here, was sent to me by Kristie.
And it cannot be more true.
Remember when you think you can't do it, YOU CAN.
Tomorrow will be a better day.
It really will be.
I update my tumblr more often these days, simply because it's easier to just reblog pictures haha.
'till then, xx.